“If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try”
So I’m sat early in the morning in bed on the laptop listening to Whatever from the album Seaside by Max Melvin, thinking about the evening I’ve just had out. It was an evening out, that somewhat opened my eyes to my life and how I’m living within it.
I realised a number of things this evening. I realised that I can sit talking with people because they want to talk to me, because I’m me…
I realised that I can go and do stuff on my own, and enjoy doing it, because it pleases me, and not anyone else…
I realised that I am a special person with a lot to offer those that want to be with me, and be part of my life..
I realised that I’ve not always told people what I really feel, and how important they are to me, I’ve never found the right words to describe their importance to me, and ended up making them feel like they were just ’someone’ to me, when in fact they meant more than everything in the world, I just couldn’t express or convey that to them, I regret with my whole heart I’ve never been brave enough to do that, that I’ve lost special things to me because of that, and I wish I could turn back the clock and tell people what they meant and how important they were to me and my being…
But I did realise that no matter what in the world I am, I do have a quite wonderful life, and those that wish to share it with me are quite lucky to do so, in that I will treat anyone in my life with the up-most respect and value, as if they are one of my family, that they will embark on a journey that will not only enhance mine, but their own life as well..
I wish some people could take a chance on me, and dig slightly deeper on who I am, and what I can give them, that they would see the real me, and the depths that I have, depths that are discovered over time, depths that I don’t think anyone has really yet found, or experienced.. and I wish sometimes I could bring some of those qualities and depths to the surface sooner, rather than hiding them deep within my soul..
I’ve also realised that I shouldn’t have come home with the traffic cone or the road works sign.. and that somehow I believe I left my shoes on the dance floor and my sock are wet… This however is all part of being ME..
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