Naquada

   Its been one of those weird starts to the week again, something of a nothing after you get over the excitement of the weekend. It probably didn’t help this morning having forgotten a number of quite important items when leaving the house, most notably my headphones. Its somewhat useless having your iPod loaded up with all the podcasts for today, and having no way of listening to them..

   So all this by the by, move on with the day and look at the tasks in hand. The one thing keeping me going this week is really the lady. Its amazing how just the smallest things can flavour the day with nice relaxing feelings that can help you cope with all the unimportantance that lands on your day.

   I was thinking this morning as I was scrabbling around for my wallet (and finding it wasn’t quite where I left it) about the idea of Ladies, Gentlemen, Friends and Enemies. It used to be an line in someones stage act, and I’ll need to hunt out and work out who it was.. “Ladies, Gentlemen, Friends and Enemies, I present to you.. A spectacle of wonder and amazement..

   So what is the spectacle of wonder and amazement? Sometimes I thnk its my life.. I’ve done more in the last five months than I’ve ever done before. I have more friends and people that care about me than I ever used to have. In some respects this is down to that mix of who I’ve had around me in my past, both good and bad.. The bad always enforcing the good things, the positive things, and framing the fact that life is actually quite good.

   Could I have gathered up 25 people to go out with on a friday night six months ago? Definately not! Could I have been struggling to keep up with my social life and trying to remember the next free weekend when I’m not doing anything? Absolutley not! Could I have switched off and forgotten about the real world and relaxed and enjoyed time away from home? Almost unheard of..

   So what’s changed? To be honest probably nothing has changed as such, its more a case of becoming the me that I think I’ve always been, but has just been suppressed. Theres an entry on my blog from the Spice Christmas Ball, and I think thats really the time when all this started to happen, the real me started to emerge again. I like this me, and certainly will try and rise over any difficult enemies to keep that me

   Someone on the train this morning was asking about me handwritting this blog entry on my TabletPC, and we spent a little bit of time discussing how neither of us really could manage without a tablet. It was odd, and when he left the train he wished me a good day, and said he’d enjoyed listening to me and what I’d said.. Maybe everything I say isn’t meaningless..

   Oh and the final thought.. Chocolate… Nigel Slater said that the best mid morning pick me up is Bread and Chocolate..

I believe this is something that I will need today and tomrrow to get through the week.. So.. Ladies, Gentlemen, Friends and Enemies… enjoy your day.. and all it holds for you… (Chocolate included)